I’m having so much trouble focusing, and it’s hard to pinpoint exactly why that is. I’m letting myself become distracted more often than I have been lately. I’m losing my motivation. That’s very easy to do in this place, lose motivation. These surroundings are so soul-crushing. But I was doing alright before, for a while. Maybe I got burnt out.
I think I had a specific plan in place for a while, and without one, I can feel myself slipping back into those old, self-destructive procrastination habits. The best, and only, way to do the thing is to just do the thing. I need to write. If this is what I want to do, I have to do it. I need to create. If that’s my direction, I need to move in it. And I need to study. This period of time, I keep telling myself, is a time to study, learn, and practice. I need to put time into studying all of the fields where I feel incompetent and want to progress, learn skills and techniques to improve, and practice them. I can’t get any better if I don’t put in the work.