Here are what I consider to be two main, complementary yet rival life views: everything happens for a reason, and a reason can be found in everything. Restated: everything has a meaning behind it, and everything can be given a meaning. It’s like when we studied novels in high school lit classes. There’s a story with an overarching theme, or perhaps several, and we were instructed to figure out how every little detail of the narrative tied to a theme. Did the author intend for each piece, each event specifically as it unfolded, to tie into a bigger picture? Or are the readers, gifted with the magic lens of hindsight, finding unplanned patterns and connections and creating their own Big Picture as they do?
I believe that everything happens for a reason, or more specifically that everything unfolds the way that it’s supposed to. That’s what I decide to believe. So much of life just boils down to what we choose to believe. We live, each one of us, in a unique world formed from a personal, subjective perspective, after all. Whatever we choose to believe becomes our reality.
But sometimes I wonder if there aren’t more dimensions to it. Let’s say there’s a certain series of lessons to be learned in a life that’s moving down a certain path. There’s a series of experiences to be had. Well, who’s to say that each experience has to unfold in a specific way? Lessons can be both destructive and wounding or transformative and healing, and both kinds of lessons tie into the same theme. So what if our actions and our lack of actions lead us to one type of lesson or the other? What if a single event, encounter, or opportunity has the potential to be either kind of lesson? What if our screw-ups really do create missed opportunities, ones that we weren’t necessarily “meant” to miss?
These are the sorts of things that I think about on rainy Friday evenings. As I was writing, I realized that this entire train of thought breaks one of my main rules. I don’t have a lot of strict rules that I hold myself to (besides “show up to life,” “build more than you destroy,” etc.), but the one main thing I forbid myself from doing is speculating on What If. And there, in the last paragraph I did it three times. Now I’m wondering why I made that rule. It’s important to think this way, to wonder these things. I think I was afraid of the pain. The last sentence of that last paragraph? I’m pretty sure that’s a covert fear of mine. I worry that my many, many screw-ups have cost me a lot of opportunities, and perhaps I justify that by convincing myself that “everything unfolds the way that it’s supposed to.”
Maybe the most important life views aren’t ones that revolve around past events at all. Maybe it’s our perspective on the future that matters most. I’m also a member of the “it’s not too late; it’s never too late” club. We have the power to choose a completely different course of being and action in a moment, regardless of past choices and errors. We just have to keep moving forward. As long as we’re alive, we stand a chance.